Sad day

I've never lost someone close to me. I don't remember my great grandpas but great grandma and grandparents still alive and pretty much healthy. A close family member is in the hospital, I can hope everything will be okay but don't know yet. It's very emotional and scary thinking about him being gone. He helps me all the time and is the one person always available to give me advice. I can't imagine living without him. Thinking about the recent moments we shared together. Another lesson to not take life for granted. Try not to judge others you never know what they've been through

to the haters

just know that your hostility makes me come back that much harder. youre gonna be sitting in the same office cubicle 30 years from now, doing the same uneventful work, desensitized, probably poor and wearing the same cheap ass clothes you buy from China, thinkin you look trendy. i'm gonna be so much happier the day I don't have to see your phony bitchy ass face every day. next time you give me one of your evil dirty looks, you know i know you know, how much more successful I am. expand your mind...get out of yourself. I know everyone has their problems, their own "story" that makes them feel unique or special, but you're so ugly, selfish, and materialistic, man I'd rather look at an elephant than you.

Mental health and modern society

Interesting...
http://www.npr.org/2011/12/02/143055122/combating-depression-with-meditation-diet 

WEIL: True, and I think it has everything to do with modern life. I think in essence the depression epidemic represents a mismatch between our genes - the kind of life our genes have prepared us for and the kind of life most of us actually live. One clue is that major depression is virtually unknown in hunter-gatherer societies. You can't find a case of it in Papua New Guinea.

So what's different there? Well, everything. You know, people in those cultures are living close to nature. They enjoy strong tribal and community support. They're eating natural diets, not industrial food. They're getting plenty of physical activity.

So everything has changed, and I think that if you want to attend to emotional well-being, you really have to look at all of the influences on physical health and emotional health, both in the physical realm, mental realm and spiritual realm.

FLATOW: Could not Facebook and Twitter, though, could you not argue that it's creating more of a sense of community?

WEIL: I think it's a false sense, frankly. You know, the research is so strong, showing that interpersonal connection is protective against depression and protective of emotional wellness. And I think that more and more of us substitute virtual interaction for real interaction.

Also, a great deal of what we see as the advancements of technology in modern life make it easier for us to live in isolated cocoons. We think that we live very comfortably, but in fact I think this is at the expense of a kind of social support that people in other cultures and people earlier in this culture enjoyed.

my living dreamcatcher

put a sleeping KiKi in bed with you and you will have a peaceful happy sleep. A sleeping Kiki next to you guards you against all worry, negativity, and bad dreams. But you have to be aware of her mood. Sometimes she is rambuctious and will wake you all night long. She can't protect you every night. put her in the right spot on your bed on the right night and she will protect your dreams. I love my Kiki my dreamcatcher. Protect All Animals

Visiting the San Francisco Zoo

No rain as expected and turned out to be a perfect day. My favorites were the gorillas and giraffes, and none of the animals look as depressed as I thought they would, except for a lonesome seal in a tiny pathetic pool. The snow leopard and polar bear looked hot. Couldn't help but see human characteristics in many of them. The gorillas look so smart and kept staring at us. The baby was adorable and playful and kept twirling around and climbing things. Giraffes are majestic. It was fun but I don't like thinking about the declining numbers of wildlife and their habitat.

fulfilling creativity desires without spending money

How you dress is a way of expressing yourself. My list of clothes, shoes,jewelry, accessories that I want to buy is outpacing the money I make. I've decided I need to find free ways to express myself in order to feel more fulfilled, like setting aside time everyday for drawing or painting. maybe sign up for a class. for now I will dream about the dress below and attempt to make my own version of Calypso Sea elegance.

TEDxFruitvale Farmworker Conference

A really inspiring conference hosted by Bon Appetit Management Company at Mills College in Oakland. Lots of great info, speakers, music, art, and film. Bon Appetit is the best at making you think about the food you're eating.

http://www.tedxfruitvale.org/webcast/