nothing else matters

i have always loved this song...who doesn't?
music ... is ... life



So close, no matter how farCouldn't be much more from the heartForever trusting who we areAnd nothing else matters
I never opened myself this wayLife is ours, we live it our wayAll these words I don't just sayAnd nothing else matters
Yeah, trust I seek and I find in youEvery day for us something newOpen mind for a different viewAnd nothing else matters
Never cared for what they doNever cared for what they knowAnd I know
So close, no matter how farCouldn't be much more from the heartForever trusting who we areAnd nothing else matters
Never cared for what they doNever cared for what they knowAnd I know, that's right
Never opened myself this wayAnd life is ours, we live it our wayAll these words I don't just sayAnd nothing else matters, yeah
Trust I seek and I find in youEvery day for us something newOpen mind for a different viewAnd nothing else matters
Never cared for things they sayNever cared for games they playI never cared for what they doI never cared for what they know

long-term relationship

i've been with my boyfriend for six years and we've lived together for 5.5 years, we moved in just 3 months after we met in college. it's been a very bumpy road, i've tried and he's wanted me to move out more times than I remember, but it never worked, probably because of lease agreements, jobs, and life commitments. so we've stuck it out and things have been really good since moving to San Francisco. there's so many exciting things to do here it's much easier not to complain about each other. But last night I didn't feel like going out and doing anything. all work weeks are exhausting and I usually want to collapse when Friday is over. I'm also going on a hike today and didn't want it to be struggle to wake up in the morning, like it always if I drink too much or stay out. So, this made him so angry, because he's living with a "grandma" "who never wants to do anything". That's how fights start with him, one thing like that will cause an onslaught of negative comments about me and him not wanting to be with me anymore. He doesn't enjoy me anymore and doesn't want to be with me in the long-term. I'm a rat, with no one that likes me or cares about me, boring, un-interesting. the list goes on. Last night really hurt, because lately I've been feeling comfortable with myself and my life, and excited for a future with him. When you don't feel "safe", mentally, in your home life, it makes me question myself, my life, and brings back all of my insecurities. Last night brought back all the feelings from past fights with him and reminded me how miserable I used to be. It's a sad feeling when the number one person in your life will say so many hurtful things about you. just earlier this week we were talking about where to buy a house, wanting babies, but not wanting to get married. since moving to SF I hadn't questioned our relationship like I used to, but he's so unhappy with me. sometimes I really feel like we are on such different levels...connecting doesn't even feel possible. fights like this always bring me back down to "reality".

reinventing your exit

old highschool songs make for good work out music ;)

Slippery People

just a little late on this band!

verdadero

one of the greatest joys in my life is having a beautiful younger sister. on our way to San Francisco today after a long Thanksgiving at home she played some of my old favorite tunes from my high school days from her iphone. Oh the memories of my emo suicidal days!

Saosin, 7 Years

Brand new, the quiet things that no one ever knows

Northstar, Rigged and Ready


Northstar, My Ricochet


Story of the year, until the day I die


Taking Back Sunday


saosin, I can tell


Silverstein, smile in your sleep


Emery, fractions


Number One Fan, Come On


Number one fan, the distance

maria maria

you know you're my lover
when the wind blows I can feel you
through the weather and even when we're apart
It feels like we're together

Javiera Mena - Acá Entera

Me reflejo en la luz 
De tus ojos que brillan 
Por esa valentía 
Que no viene en la voz 

Cuando vamos las dos 
Son tus pasos la vía 
La bajada nos guía 
En directo al amor... 

Y al pasar la intensidad 
Que me llevo a cambiar 
Mi animal siempre vas 
Perpendicular... 

Voy pasando el deseo 
Que me hace brillar 
Un momento que en el tiempo 
Se mantendrá 

Voy directo a la luz 
De todas las estrellas 
Mucho miedo me entrega 
Ni tu mano me das 

Cuando miro mi error 
Se me nubla la vista 
Finalizo la lista 
Cuando sola se esta 

Y al pasar la intensidad 
Que me llevo a cambiar 
Mi animal siempre vas 
Perpendicular... 

Voy pasando el deseo 
Que me hace brillar 
Sentimiento que en el tiempo 
Se mantendrá 

Que me hace llorar... 

Voy a aprender 
Que al perder de mi vida 
El poder otro lado sera ver 
Mucho mas velocidad 

Encantar que la edad 
Muchas veces nos traiciona 
Y no hay nada mas 
En mi 

Acá entera pa mi 
Acá entera pa mi 
Acá entera pa mi 
Acá entera pa mi