So simple yet such attention to detail. So clean.

I really love Brian W. Ferry photography.

http://bferry.wordpress.com/

Happy Holidays Bitches

Take Care

Know you’ve been hurt by someone else
I can tell by the way you carry yourself
If you let me, here’s what I’ll do
I’ll take care of you
I’ve loved and I’ve lost

I’ve asked about you and they’ve told me things
But my mind didn’t change, I still the feel the same
What’s a life with no fun? please don’t be so ashamed
I’ve had mine, you’ve had yours, we both know
We know, they don’t get you like I will
My only wish is I die real
Cause that truth hurts, and those lies heal
And you can’t sleep thinking that he lies still
So you cry still, tears all in the pillow case
Big girls all get a little taste
Pushing me away so I give her space
Dealing with a heart that I didn’t break
I’ll be there for you, I will care for you
I keep thanking you, just don’t know
Try to run from that, say you’re done with that
On your face girl, it just don’t show
When you’re ready, just say you’re ready
When all the baggage just ain’t as heavy
And the parties over, just don’t forget me
We’ll change the pace and we’ll just go slow
Won’t ever have to worry,
You won’t ever have to hide
If you’ve seen all my mistakes
So look me in my eyes

Cause if you let me, here’s what I’ll do
I’ll take care of you
I’ve loved and I’ve lost

It’s my birthday, I get high if I want to
Can’t deny that I want you, but I lie if have to
Cause you don’t say you love me
To your friend when they ask you
Even though we both know that you do (you do)
One time, been in love one time
You and all your girls in the club one time
All so convinced that you’re following your heart
Cause your mind don’t control what it does sometimes
We all have our nights though, don’t be so ashamed
I’ve had mine, you’ve had yours, we both know
We know, you hate being alone
You ain’t the only one
You hate the fact that you bought the dream
And they sold you one
You love your friends but somebody shoulda told you somin’ to save you
Instead they said…

(Dont tell me, I don’t care, if you hurt)
(I don’t tell you, you don’t care)

Know you’ve been hurt by someone else
I can tell by the way you carry yourself
If you let me, here’s what I’ll do
I’ll take care of you
I’ve loved and I’ve lost

Sad day

I've never lost someone close to me. I don't remember my great grandpas but great grandma and grandparents still alive and pretty much healthy. A close family member is in the hospital, I can hope everything will be okay but don't know yet. It's very emotional and scary thinking about him being gone. He helps me all the time and is the one person always available to give me advice. I can't imagine living without him. Thinking about the recent moments we shared together. Another lesson to not take life for granted. Try not to judge others you never know what they've been through

to the haters

just know that your hostility makes me come back that much harder. youre gonna be sitting in the same office cubicle 30 years from now, doing the same uneventful work, desensitized, probably poor and wearing the same cheap ass clothes you buy from China, thinkin you look trendy. i'm gonna be so much happier the day I don't have to see your phony bitchy ass face every day. next time you give me one of your evil dirty looks, you know i know you know, how much more successful I am. expand your mind...get out of yourself. I know everyone has their problems, their own "story" that makes them feel unique or special, but you're so ugly, selfish, and materialistic, man I'd rather look at an elephant than you.

Mental health and modern society

Interesting...
http://www.npr.org/2011/12/02/143055122/combating-depression-with-meditation-diet 

WEIL: True, and I think it has everything to do with modern life. I think in essence the depression epidemic represents a mismatch between our genes - the kind of life our genes have prepared us for and the kind of life most of us actually live. One clue is that major depression is virtually unknown in hunter-gatherer societies. You can't find a case of it in Papua New Guinea.

So what's different there? Well, everything. You know, people in those cultures are living close to nature. They enjoy strong tribal and community support. They're eating natural diets, not industrial food. They're getting plenty of physical activity.

So everything has changed, and I think that if you want to attend to emotional well-being, you really have to look at all of the influences on physical health and emotional health, both in the physical realm, mental realm and spiritual realm.

FLATOW: Could not Facebook and Twitter, though, could you not argue that it's creating more of a sense of community?

WEIL: I think it's a false sense, frankly. You know, the research is so strong, showing that interpersonal connection is protective against depression and protective of emotional wellness. And I think that more and more of us substitute virtual interaction for real interaction.

Also, a great deal of what we see as the advancements of technology in modern life make it easier for us to live in isolated cocoons. We think that we live very comfortably, but in fact I think this is at the expense of a kind of social support that people in other cultures and people earlier in this culture enjoyed.