MOVING TO SAN FRANCISCO

number one goal for the upcoming year....have fun and enjoy life.
let it be written here in the computer for me to refer to in case I forget.
no stressing about money, what career I want, or if I should go to grad school. NO STRESS, NO WORRY.
I envision....meeting people and making a fucking friend...art class...botanical garden...cooking....taking care of myself....exploring the city..happy hours....live music....lots of walking...eating at new places...cultures....taking lots of photos...reading books and watching movies....not letting my job stress me out...smiling....feeling creative...feeling young
what I'm aiming for: be happy and have fun.
I know I can do this..hope the commute and parking doesn't kill me.

HALLELUJAH

Spanish class is bitch!

uno mas semana

so many FEELINGS

so fuckin emotional and moody. seriously it would be such a blessing if a car would fuckin kill me tomorrow. then there really is a god. i don't like life at all. my family is idiotic. i have zero friends. im a moron with no memory.  im sure my boss agrees. im not interesting or intelligent or unique. i feel completely exhausted. trapped. i cant afford to move out of this boring place with mold in the walls of the apartment building. all i want right now is to be able to enjoy life with people and that is completely non existent. i am feeling extremely cynical and hopeless about life.

GETTING THIS GOD AWFUL COPPER IUD REMOVED IMMEDIATELY

Spent the last 2 days spending a lot of time reading other womens stories about the horrible side effects of the Paragard "non-hormonal" copper IUD. It feels so good to know I will have this evil device removed from my body soon...hopefully with no complications. I've read that in 10% the IUD was placed incorrectly and they had to go through surgery to have it removed. Many women have also gotten pregnant while on the Paragard. For me, I have lost a ton of hair over the past 4 years, as well as health issues like mild anemia and some mental issues.
I've also read horror stories from the pill, and I dont want to go on that either. Guess it's back to uncomfortable condoms, and i'm going to learn about the Calendar method. I really dont want to take the pill and mess with my hormones and possibly lose even more hair. I'm going to be natural to my body....and if I get pregnant...I don't even care...JK....haaaaaaaa. I gotta get a Masters degree at the Univ of Hawaii before that happens